Hey! My name is Phoenix, I am 22 years old and 225 lbs and I am working on changing my life. Even before I got to my current weight, I was never skinny. I was semi- healthy though. When I was a kid I was in cheerleading and soccer. I think I started gaining weight probably right before middle school. once i was in high school though, I struggled with loosing weight. My senior year I found tennis and completely fell in love with the sport. I started loosing weight fast. By the time graduation rolled around I had dropped from a size 20 to a size 16. I was so incredibly proud of myself.
Then, after high school I was still pretty active, but not as much as I was in school. So I very slowly started putting the weight back on. I ended up meeting my now ex- girlfriend and moving to Savannah with her. While I was there I played the role as a "House Wife". I cooked, cleaned and took care of the dogs. I lived there for about 5 months and moved back after things weren't working out with us. By the time I got home to Florida, I was almost 300 lbs and was in a size 24.
I honestly don't think I tried to loose weight until a year after that when I moved in to my Sister-in-laws house. She did weight watchers and was awesome. She was my inspiration. She was doing so good and dropping the weight. I started eating better and trying to be a little more active.
As time passed I got to a size 20 and started noticing little changes here and there. I felt a little better and it became clearer to me that I needed to keep going. While I was living with my Sister-in-law I started talking to a girl that was hard core into working out. I started working out with her and got to a size 18.
Now after her and I didn't work out I had a complete mental brake down and stopped caring about myself and went back up to a size 18. So not only was my physical health crappy; my mental health was going to crap as well. I don't know if this has ever happened to you but these's two things don't mix very well at all.
I moved closer to home and then got even worse because my best friend at the time had moved to miami, I wasn't going to school anymore and things at my job were not good. I tried to start at a different school, but was struggling. I had to move back in with my mom in January of this year and she has helped me so much everything.
After a month I decided that I needed to stop feeling bad for my self and get my ass moving. The school I was going gave us multiple breaks during the day so we could go get snacks and drinks. I swear in my first few months of school everyone ate so much lol just because we could. We have a Publix and a Cvs right a cross the street from us so it was very easy to just run across the street and grab something.
Once we got into our next phase of school the snacks runs slowed down for me and I wanted to get healthy. I really started paying attention to what I was eating, but every once in a while I would slip up and get crappy food. Then my weight was starting to go up and down.
I just moved on to the 3rd phase in my school and about two weeks ago I made a decision to make my self healthier. I don't want to me skinny; I just want to be healthy. I have started walking everyday and I already feel so much better. I've also stopped drinking soda and that has REALLY helped. I can already feel a great change for my life.
If you have read all of this, thank you so much for your time and I promise the won't all be this long.
**Please remember no matter what your pants size is you are a truly beautiful person and don't let anyone tell you different. If you want to loose weight and get healthy, do it for you and NO ONE ELSE <3
With all my love,
Phoenix
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